why i'm the ELDEST???

Today is the most hectic day after all!
*Fortunately, it is not because of workload*
Sigh ^~^
Last evening, I got 6missed calls from my lil sis..
I couldn't call her back because I didn't have enough credit.
Then, she called me back telling me that she was so upset with my dad..
They both had a little misunderstanding I guess.
She was not as happy as usual. Her tone of voice clearly enough to tell me that she was very sad.
And she kept crying till the end.

I didn't know how could I help her.
I didn't know how to calm her.
I did try my best to not let her cry.
But I just couldn't help myself..
At this point, there's only one thing in my mind..
WHY I'M THE ELDEST???
Why I didn't have any brother to depends on?
Why I didn't have any sister to share with?

O.M.G, I just couldn't help myself..
Yeah, it is so like me..
Once my sis ended the call, tears kept flowing..
I was at the bus stand, waiting for the bus with many other people!
Really, I was so sad to hear my lil sis crying..
I didn't know what should I do..
Dear Allah, plz give me strength to be a good sister to my siblings..

Now its BEGIN

Today is my 3rd day at Citi..
Syukur, today is much better than yesterday.
I did my part.. Not just being a silent audience like before.
I talked.. I laughed.. I asked.. I answered..
Really, it was full of joys. It's a good beginning after all.
Thank to Prem, now I become more confident :)
*unfortunately, he's taken already*

During my 1st and 2nd day, I was so drowning.
You just imagine, there are 14 of us..
And out of these, half are non-Malays.
And among these 14 new hires, only 3 are fresh grad.
And of course I'm the part of these 3peoples.
Unfortunately, I'm the only one who graduated from local uni!!!
Really, it's hard! I have no confidence at all.

But then, my mum said I should try my best.
Do not GIVE UP.
Think +ve.
And Sumaxest said I should be proud of myself.
I'm good enough as they hired me.
And Alang said I need to believe in myself.
If not, I'm not losing to others but myself.

And now, I can feel the different.
All I have to do is to have the passion on what I'm going to do.
Just CHILL!
Really, I want to go beyond the limitation.
Nothing is impossible :)
I believe I can!
Really, I wanna make the difference..
even my qualification not as cool as others ;)

ALLAH knows better

"Kadang2 sesuatu yang kamu sukai itu
Buruk untuk kamu.
Dan sesuatu yang kamu tidak sukai itu
Baik untuk kamu.
Sesungguhnya Dia yang Maha Mengetahui.."

And same goes to me! Last few years, I never imagined what my future is except being a lawyer.. I yearned to be a lawyer! Just a lawyer! But ALLAH knows better. And I started to be a Finance student. Still, ALLAH knows better. And I began my internship at Bank Rakyat. Really, ALLAH knows better.

I do love banking! Money... Money... Money... Yeah, MONEY is not everything but POVERTY is nothing. No matter what, I want to be part of banking sector. Syukur ALLAH, I got it! I've signed the agreement with Citibank yesterday. Customer service exec is not what I really want! But 1 thing for sure, ALLAH knows better. I just hope that I could cope with it and I could find the excitement of my life at Citibank :)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

SELAMAT HARI RAYA semua!

Raya kali ni mcm raye2 yg lepas gak.. Pagi raya g smayang raya kat masjid, pas 2 2nggu mereka2 datang beraye kat umah pas 2 ikot mereka2 ke rumah mereka2 pula.. Hehe..

Raya ke 2 pulak balik kampung bonda di Thailand :)
And raya ke 3 buat pertama kali terperap kat umah. Slalu nye g jalan umah kawan2 skolah rendah tp Ikhwan cuti kejap je. Arini da kne balik uni. So yg laen2 cam xde arah tuju..

Tp raya tahun ni ade laen nye sket. Wat pertama kali saya nangis dengar takbir raya mase smayang raye. Wat pertama kali saya beraya tanpa ma dan pertama kali juga beraya tanpa Mok Ngoh! Dua wanita yg sgt sinonim dlm hidup saya. Ma yg sejak dri kecik jage saya, manja kan saya.. Dan Mok Ngoh yg sgt sporting! Ble buhsan xtaw nk wat ape kat umah, slalu g umah Mok Ngoh. Terase laen sekali hari raye kali ni..

Pape pon, SELAMAT HARI RAYA semua!
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN :)

Selamat Hari Kemerdekaan, MALAYSIAku

Selamat Hari Kemerdekaan MALAYSIAku!

Saya sayang Malaysia..
Sgt2!
Xtaw dri mane datang semangat patriotik saya ni, sejak kecik lagi saya memang sgt sayangkan Malaysia..
Saya ske bace buku2 Sejarah..
Saya ske subjek Sejarah..
Kawan2 slalu ckp Sejarah ni bosan. Tp saya sgt ske!
And cerita 1st yang saya tengok kat wayang ialah cerita Leftenan Adnan. Hehe..
Patriotik kan?



Baru2 ni saya tgk Hati Malaya 1957 kat TV2..
Cite 2 sgt menarik. Dan saya asik menangis je!
Bukan kisah cinta Maya Karin ngan Rusdi Ramli yg wat saya sedey tp kisah perjuangan pejuang2 tanah air yg buat saya menangis bagai nak rak.


Saya kagum dengan keberanian Dato' Onn menentang Malayan Union..
Pilu dengan segelintir Melayu yang menuduh Dato' Onn sebagai tali barut British..
Dato' Onn mahu Melayu bersatu dengan Cina dan India bukan kerana mahu menghapuskan hak Melayu..
Tp kerana mahu menunjukkan warga Tanah Melayu bersatu agar dpt mengusir British..
Saya terharu dengan sikap warga Tanah Melayu yang tidak lokek menggadai harta benda demi menyelamatkan Tanah Melayu..
Saya bangga dengan Tan Cheng Lock yg bersetuju menyertai Perikatan..
Melayu, Cina, India.. Mereka semua satu!
Masing2 bersatu untuk mendapatkan kemerdekaan.
Sungguh.. Kalaulah semangat pejuang tersebut ada dalam diri kita, saya percaya perkauman tidak akan menjadi isu besar.

Sudah 53 tahun kita mencapai kemerdekaan..
Dan kedudukan Melayu semakin goyah..
Melayu, Cina, India..
Entah bila pula akan kembali bersatu..
Kenapa tidak kita bersatu seperti dulu?

SAYA SAYANG MALAYSIA!
Anda bagaimana???